We are availed of grace to know holiness.
If God’s grace were merely made available, it would never be availed of, since a natural man cannot submit himself to that law of God, which alone the Spirit empowers (Rom 8); because in Adam he is dead to God, and God to him. The natural man does not possess the love of God’s Life, nor even desires it in truth. Even if the natural man could avail himself of the grace of God, he wouldn’t. Man must be first availed of grace to even desire grace; for those not born of the Holy Spirit recoil from true holiness.
Men want God’s blessings, but not His sufferings; they want to partake in His glory, but not in His humiliation; they want forgiveness, but no accountability: this is not true grace. They suppose that because of Christ’s work, it has become the birthright of every man to obtain His mercy (which would render it no longer mercy), for they concern themselves little the rights of the sovereign God. In this is revealed a very wicked heart which, unless it becomes regenerate, would truly choose hell over heaven if it beheld the One who is perfect in beauty. Holiness is the great torment of the profane; unless they awaken to righteousness from within the heart by the power of He who alone creates out of nothing, Who alone makes light to shine from out of the midst of darkness.
Those who do not even want pursue holiness are not availing themselves of God’s grace; and those not availing themselves of His grace ought to question whether they have even been availed of it. And the true pursuit of holiness has no alterior motive: it is purely the action of worship.
For everyone practicing wickedness hates the Light, and does not come to the Light, that his works may not be exposed. But the one doing the truth comes to the Light, that his works may be revealed, that they exist, having been worked in God.